Here I go again God!
What is it about Mr. Black that I can not shake? I keep telling myself that i’m over this marriage, and that I never want to be back with him again after he did his dirt, but come to find out I have some dirt that I tossed into this bed of adultery. But this does not make us even or right about what we both have done.
The consequences behind the shame that broke my heart was the mere fact that my husband, and I seen each other with different people, and the look he gave me was a look to die for. His look made me want to just stoop to the bottom of my chair, and never to be seen by him ever again.
But that feeling faded, and the rebound of mly heart was on the line again, but not for the man that i was with , but for my husband Seretse. I would see your face everywhere, And knowing that I was out here laying wild with anther person while you were moving on with your life. This is not how I wanted to wait for you while God was working on our marriage. I really wanted to be pure when you came back home.
I eally wanted t remain in a place of solitude before God, and away from everyone else just so I would not have any temptation for anyone else well but you. I know this is a far stretch o road to ask, but God I want my husband back, and i refuse to be another mrs. somebody. I want to remain Mrs. Black! You joined this untion together god, and i can not speak for my husband, and I won’t ever attempt to.
All I know is how I feel, and I do know that eveyone has free will, and with that being said I pray father if there is even the slightest chance of Our marriage being reconciled please grant me us a clean start, and for Mr. Black, and i to be healed, and whole in you before you join us back together.
I am far from a perfect wife, and i know that I have violated the vows in my marriage, and I know that i have loosened Ecclesiastes 4:12 Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.
i know that there is a lot of healing that needs to take part in getting this marriage back on track, and I know that I do not run this show i am willing to do whatever it takes in you in order for your will to be completely done in working on my marriage. I prayer enterally that you will guide me in all of my way, and that where you send me i will not hesitate to go. I pray these things in Jesus name. Amen
Hello! My name is Jereè and I began this BLOG to share my journey as a Woman unapologetically as I start the process of mending the pieces of my broken life with God’s help by sharing my life #UnMended while Baring the deepest parts of myself has been very hard, but is so worth it in the end to see the woman I’ll become. So Cheers to healing, and to celebrating my freedon as a woman, in love, in life, and in faith. May you also grow from what I’ve grown from. Xo Jereè