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Unsettled Thoughts

Unsettled Thoughts

Thoughts that linger in the back of your mind are often thoughts that are unsettled, and unprocessed. – Jereè Speaks 

When you are undecided of what you want to do with the measure of your time you become uneasily bothered with not being settled in some areas in you life, and sometimes this can cause a devided against you moving forward in the things that you are suppose to be functioning in where your purpose in concerened.

 

have you ever thought about being more established but not having the core mindset tools to get you to where you would like to be? Well that use to be me sometime ago I did not have the time or the readiness to walk in the things that God was calling me to do. I would make up any excuse that I could to not fully be in alignemtn with the Kingdom assignments that has been placed over my life.

I was so ready in my heart, but in som many areas of my mind there were things, thoughts, and unhealed wounds that were unsettled, and they needed immediate attention before i could even think about moving ahead in anything that I wanted to pursue or so i thought.

 

When i fought against the things that God told me to do the more, and more I found myself falling by the waste side of life, and the more I really got into a world of mess of my own. There were times where I would look at myself, and think to myself… Why are you doing this to yourself girl?

I did not want to be like the rest of them lost without someone to come, and save ne. Nope i wanted to be the example privately ( in God’s view only) so that I can go back, and save the lost one’s. But God had a different plan. He was going to publicy use my mess for His message, and i somehow was in agreece with His plan lol.

 

I was at a time where i was so messed up in the head that all I wanted was to be rescued by God, and accept what He has purposed for my life. This was over 4 years ago, and my life did not get better in the blink of an eye just because i chose to accept God’s will for my life. Now there was some deep deep cleasing that had to take place, and there was some major forgiveness that had to come from within my heart for the people in my past that used, and abused me.

I want to say this to all of God’s daughters that are currently or have battled with giving God a yes to serve Him. Nothing is going to be easy whether you are in the world dancing on the enemy’s playground, and or whether you take a leap of bold faith, and answer the call to serve God with your whole heart things will not be perfect but I can tell you this being with God, and living a life poured out unto Him is so worth it knowing that we are covere by the Father ( see Psalms 91.)

In His Presence

In His Presence

There nothing like being in the presence of God, and therhe’s nothing like being there on a consistent basis to feel him while you are worshipping at His feet. I know that there are a lot of things that are going on in this dark world that we live in but are not of. i was in my prayer time this morning, and God literally wrecked my entire heart, and I needed that more than I knew.

God showed up in the parts of my life where i needed Him to spiritually, and that blessed my heart so much. I know that God cares for me, and that he also cares for you. The time that we spend in God’s presnets is very critical to how we are suppose to develop spiritually. We can not afford to be lacking in any area in our lives as believer. We have to continuously count up the cousts, and give God the praise for being so gracious to us.

 

We can not afford to keep on givingk space to the enemy, and denying ourselves from experiecing the fullness of God. You have to declare something today over your life that you are not going to allow anytihng to hold you have from seeking the face of God, and you have to know that God is a God of peace, and a God of order.

 

You have yp relearn how to position yourself back into the presence of God, and remain there even when things get to rough to bare release it al at the Master’s feet, and He will be glad to take it off of your hand, and carry it for you.

 

Let’s pray!

Dear Heavenly Father,

I pray right now for a divine visitation from you upon the lives of your daughters, and that they will be able to feel your love, and your presence like never before. God I pray right now that you will walk into their situatuins, and turn it completely around for them, and that from this day on that they wil walk up right before you declaring to always place you first in all that they do, and to never walk away from you even when this become too stressful to bare I pray these things in Jesus name. Amen.

He Left Me! Now How Am I Suppose Live Through This Heartache?

He Left Me! Now How Am I Suppose Live Through This Heartache?

Have you ever been caught in a battle to save the only love that you wanted for the rest of you life? 

I never imagine that I would be wriiting about him again, and in the same context of where I left off but even worst ths time. ? I thought that i was over dealing with the dysfunctions of that toxic mess of a relationship that I was in. But I somehow did not learn from the pain the last time around.

i was in this off, and on again relationship with this guy well call him “T” ,. He was the most charming, witty, intellectual  man that I’ve met in a long time, and i was really take with him because not just anyone can peek my interest.

when we first startwd talking my guard was up so high that no one was bringing it down because i’d builf this wall of protection to keep any, and every negative source out of my life. Until he came, and begin to bothet my heart. I was already healing from on action of a heart break, and I did not have time for someine else to come in, and make it any worse that what it aleady was.

 

there was sometihng about how he pursued me. He did not just come to play but he was coming to restore ( his words not mine.) At first galance I was curious to know more of what he was meaning behind this wholr notion of coming to restore.

I remember being with him, and just soaking up every moment that we shared together, and then boom he hit me with the one, and two.. You kniw that controlled behavior that some men, not all do when they want to make sure that they have their women in full check mold without her knowing it. it’s called manipulation.

 

This was the like fifth time that i took him back, and it had to be the final time because i could not keep on allowing mt heart to break open, and bleed to say that i have someone that loves me in public, and will check anyone that tried me but behind closed doors he disrespected me, talked down on me so bad to where I’d cry myself to sleep without him even being awae of it.

 

i was tired, and I know that i needed to free myself from him, but I was not really sure if I had the strength, and or will power to see it through because in my mind i was still team us. I thought somehow he would see how he was causing so much pain to my heart, and would change into the man that i thought I met before he begin to change.

The tears kept streaming down the corners of my cheeks, and all he would say is get over it, and I would get angry, and cry somemore. The thing that he mentioned for me to get over was the fact that he broke intimacy between him, and I. I was so hurt, and so confused because he always promise me that he would never break my heart, and that he would never cheat on me.

 

There is nothing more disheartening then knowing that someine you love has broken trust, and the fact that they no longer have respect for you. I tried to get him out of my system by removing myself from his life. I move to a whole nother state, and he still remained deeply within my mind, and my body. i just could not seem to make the disconnect from him, because I was so used to being with him on a daily, and I was still very much in love with him.

 

Sometimes went on, and i begiin to really focus on my goals, and settle into the new state that i was in. I started to build, and get a little bit of clarity in all that i went through I being to draw closer to the Lord, and I was serving in my minstry again. I was over him, and i blocked his nimbler. Until……. An unknown caller showed up on the screen of my phone, and I answered it, it was him professing that he missed me so much.

i bit for a little bit.. ki know y’all, I know…. It was the rushig of those old ties, and that familiar spirit that i once knew in him. That lonely woman was just taken by hearinf the voice of the man that she thought she could not live without. Weeks past, and we talked, and God reminded me of all the pain that I endured in that relationship. I had to pull it together .

 

And this is how I found the courage to rise hm out of my system

  • I had to learn that happines does not equate to pain

  • I had to know that I had to physically, and emotionally remove myself from him

  • i had to turn my pain into another message of healing from within

  • I had to develop the strength to block him again

  • i had disconnect the stings of my heart from his heart

  • I had to know that i deserve better

  • I had to learn that the outter appearance is different from what is  hidden on the insdie

  • I had to allow God to reposition my posture before Him

Whatever It Takes To Drive The Enemy Away

Whatever It Takes To Drive The Enemy Away

I had to step away for a while because I was dealing with some heart issues that were been hidden in the deep places of my heart. I knew that some day it would all come rushing back to the surfaces but not how it hit me this past weekend. 

Friday I was in good mood, and I was getting some work done, and all of a sudden this wave of emotion came over me, and I was no good to do anything that I had been giving my full attention to. I was in this space of missing someone that was entirely no good for me. Someone that I had to physically remove myself from but I could emotionally let him go.

 

I slipped up, and sent him a picture of myself, and said that I was praying for him which I was. But I could have left the picture Out, and or just offered a prayr up for him, and never had these aching feelings that I currently have in the pit of my stomach. Yesterday was the frist time in a long time that I cried about not being abole to be with him. Although we only were in a hot minute relationship he became apart of my daily life, and became the full function of my life at times it was hard for me to even be away from him when we were getting along really good, and than there were those other times where I just did not want to be around him period.

Watch the video below it’s from last year.. 

 

I know that every time I laid with him the soul tie deepened, and the layers of sin increased. The lesson that I learned from this has been to not allow myself to get involved with a man just for the comfort of wanting to be love, and adore but to established a solid relationship with God, and, when He feels like He is ready to place with with someone it will be in the right manner with vows being exchanged.

 

 

You Can’t Live In Your Sister’s Season

You Can’t Live In Your Sister’s Season

“Thou shalt not also go into the house of feasting, to sit with them to eat and to drink.”
‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭16:8‬ ‭

HYou Canave you ever been stuck in a season where you felt left out, and as you are noticing the cycle of errors inside of your own life you also notice the clout that everyone else are chasing?

 

I have experienced many seasons of my life where I was in the trenches decalring the things of God over my life, and I was still inside of my mind living in a comparison state of mind, Not only did I wish I was in another woman’s shoes, and I wish I had a ministry as great as she did.

 

God had to bring my attention to the things that I could not handle at that point in my life let alone the circumstance of another woman, and what she might have gone through to reach her bliss, and bloom in the Kingdom of God.

 

After God brought me back to my own reality I had to learn how to settle my mind, and clear the contents of my heart. I had to stop measuring where I was in my own life VS. where someone else was in their life as far as ministry, and their personal life.

I’m reminded of a blog I read not that long ago It was entitle ” Do it for the gram. Living my best lie.” this post is speaking of how we often live in a flase sense of life because the pressure to look so well put together is always resting over our shoulders you know that standard to keep up with the Joneses.

 

If you are currently finding yourself in a season of comparison chile look deeper from within, and be grateful for where God has brought you from, and begin to get excited about where He is taking you.  Sis you have to remember that the journey is meant to bare the beauty of your heart inside of the Kingdom not to stir up strife against your Sis.

Attention To The HAlf Time Faithful

Attention To The HAlf Time Faithful

PSA: Attention all congressional leaders, and pew members please stop allowing the enemy to shake you up and get you off guard. Stand firm in your faith in God.

Do not say you have crazy faith, and then you fall out when your house is hit with a trail. Yes it doesn’t feel good to go through but you have to suffer a while, and then you’ll reign with Him, and suffer some more.

This is not for the ones that are actually in the trenches doing the work while deepening their faith to understand that a God is still at work even when things around them doesn’t match up to what God has promise.

I see y’all going through it and y’all still are standing firm on what God has shown you. I love y’all, and you will get through this.

Now for the ones that does not know what it takes to please God please see the scriptures below

What pleases God: Matthew 17:20

What doesn’t please God: Hebrews 11:6

How to remain covered in God: Psalms 91

12 great Bible verses to build your belief in God:

Ephesians 3:20
“Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us.”

Hebrews 10:23
“Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful.”

1 John 5:14–15
“This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us – whatever we ask – we know that we have what we asked of him.”

Matthew 19:26
“But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”

2 Thessalonians 3:3
“But the Lord is faithful. He will establish you and guard you against the evil one.”
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1 Peter 5:7
“Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.”

Psalm 30:5
“Weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.”

Mark 11:22–24
“And Jesus answered them, “Have faith in God. Truly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be taken up and thrown into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that what he says will come to pass, it will be done for him. Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.”

2 Corinthians 4:8
“We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair …”

2 Timothy 2:13
“If we are faithless, he remains faithful – for he cannot disown himself.”

This is not a judgmental post but I’m reflecting on the things that I have seen, and that I’m currently seeing in some area of ministry.

We are all required to teach, heal, and discipline our own lives before we can teach others how to have what we obtained through our own trails & tribulations.

It’s time to fix our posture before God, and return to the prayer alter because some of us are a little dusty, and absent in our personal prayer time with God.

This is the reason why change isn’t coming to your house because you are part timing with God.

Let’s not forget that we are to always pray:

See the following scriptures.

“Pray without ceasing. In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you. Quench not the Spirit.

Prove all things; hold fast that which is good.”
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1 Thessalonians‬ ‭5:17-19, 21‬ ‭KJVA‬‬

This Pandemic is hasn’t happened just because. God wants your time, your worship, your full Yes to Him, and until you give it all to Him…. He’s not releasing you anything into you.

God is not a genie, He is not a magical act, He is not a character of performance that you can just dig out of your trick box.

Honor Him for who He is, and not for what He can just do for you. Go to God , and get you love walk correct with Him.

I love y’all l, and I just want to see us all reach new heights in the Kingdom with no lack. ??

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