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Are You Listening To His Sound?

Are You Listening To His Sound?

Recently there has beeen a redirection in my spirit but my mindset has not been latching on to the directions of where God has instructed me to go. I have been lazy in answer the call lately because I want more of what I need instead of what he needs me to do. 

This is so out of order! with how my spirit would normally respond to the instructions of God. I have been so in the dumps lately that the only thing i will not hold back is my praise to God, and even that has been a challenge to enter into. I read my bible daily, and I constantly surround my ears gates with worship music…. So my question to myelf is….. Whatk is lingering in my heart more that I have my focus on more than God?

To answer this you have to understand what I am going through, and what I am standing on but what i am not fully walking in is the structure of my obedience to God, and my focused faith in praise that i am no longer living in the moment but i am excited about the praise offered up to God. This is where I need to be on a daily basis in order to fulfill my increase of praise to God on this journey. 

I always find myself trying to perfect all that I am going through by living in a coud of unerved emotions and or in the mall purchasing gadgets to sooth my pains of waiting on the wait of my circumstances to change in all aspects of my life that are not going in my favork in this current moment. but what i have to remember is that God is already moving on my behalf, and while I am going through the ringer of elements to change my mindset to see visually the spiritual insight that God has for me to see I can climb up to the hill, and not be moved from this place.

Yesterday while going into a place of worship where freedom rested in the atmosphere God challenged me to praise Him for real where i was not just going through the emotional standards of worship, and this hit a tide in my path that remove a huge mountain out of my way, and I shouted until i was tossed by the wall in the spirit unhurt, and closer to the lesson being taught to me by God.

At times i know that i be wildin’ out in my own way runninkg here, and there, and not giving my full attention to the things concerning the heart of God. I feel so consumed with the things that I want to do, and that pleases my life that I get stuck on this self will, and this is not a good thing that is pleasing in the sight of God; so here is where thie things change in my focus to where i need it to shift to.

When I hear the sound of God voice it does not matter how i feel I will run to Him, and listen for the sound of His instructions for my life daily. i will not back away when things get to heavy nor when they seem to outweigh what i thought was the right turn. I will be the right way in what God is ordering in my life. 

So I have made up in the center, and all the corners of my heart, mind, body, and soul to get out of hibernation, and carry on with these hand that He has anointed to walk in places, and snatch His people back out of the place where the light will enter into these dark places.

Are you listening to the sound of the Holy Ghost? 

What is distracting you, and how can we gear up together to ignite Gods sound in your life today. Let me know below in the comment section…. 

Silence wrecked our marriage. Unhealed wombs divided us. Unkept vows separated us. Hello! My name is Jereè and I began this BLOG to share my journey as a wife as I start the process of mending the pieces of my broken marriage with God’s help by sharing my life #UnMended. God inspired the name “Mend The Vow” which means repair (something that is broken or damaged)  Relationship with God and with our husbands. It is based on the Scripture in 2 Chronicles 24:12. My hope is to encourage other wives in the world who are, have been separated,and want to mend their marriage back together.

Resist The Need To Satisfy The Flesh

Resist The Need To Satisfy The Flesh

Lately I have been walking in my flesh which as we all know dwells no good thing. I have been dividing the me into what God has told me to do concerning my husband, and I had \been so angry with my husband that I did not see the entry way that i had open up to the enemy instead of me being mad in the natural I should have shifted the way that I felt in prayer, and I should have just given it to God.

Have you ever been in a place where you just want to rise in your flesh, and just stay there for as long as your could because you felt justified? 

Welllet me tell you this is not a good place to be caught in because the enemy has knowledge of what you are up to i your flesh because you are choosing to give him rule over your emotions when you are acting in your flesh. I experienced this not to long ago, and I did not see it like the point made just above.

I was hurting from a place of lack of understand from my husband, and the moment things shifted was on yesterday when I went to go visit one of my best friends in Landcaster on yesterday. A mother of her church ask to pray for me as I was on my way walking to my best friends room, and as I walked towards her she said you are ready to explode, and I just looked at her a started to cry.

She continued to go on a give me some spiritual wisdom on how i should handle what I was going through, and after that my best friends husband poured into me, and I was thankful to have some real people of God speak the real in my life. I knew i was goiing out to visit my friend but i had no clue that God has plans of what to do waiting on me with sound instruction that only he can provide to my situation.

The thing with not allowing your flesh to rise when God is calling for you to bring it all to Him is more effective then needed to feel the freedom in acting on your faith, and it destroy what God wants to do in your life.

Silence wrecked our marriage. Unhealed wombs divided us. Unkept vows separated us. Hello! My name is Jereè and I began this BLOG to share my journey as a wife as I start the process of mending the pieces of my broken marriage with God’s help by sharing my life #UnMended. God inspired the name “Mend The Vow” which means repair (something that is broken or damaged)  Relationship with God and with our husbands. It is based on the Scripture in 2 Chronicles 24:12. My hope is to encourage other wives in the world who are, have been separated,and want to mend their marriage back together.

Worrying While Waiting

Worrying While Waiting

Lately I have been impatiently waiting on God to do what He has promised in a lot of areas in my life, but I have also been worrying at the same time thinking too hard of when it will happen, and to be honest if it is going to happen.

For the most part it seems as though on most days I am strong, and on other days I am the weakest link. I am growing very tired in being indifferent while I am waiting I know that I have to trust God totally to bring it all together without worrying in the process of things.

Nothing is more uncomfortable to me in not knowing when something is going to come to a hault but in these situation I know that God is able to do it all in His time; so I have to decide right now that I will not worry while God is working things out for my good.

Have you ever been there?

Here are some positive things that you can do to stop worrying while God is working things out in your favor!

  1. Pray against self doubt.
  2. Rejoyce in the midst of adversity.
  3. Know that God is always able to keep you
  4. Make a stand to recover all things that the enemy has stollen from you
  5. Discover your happiness while god is fighting on your behalf

The fact that knowing that God has your best interest at heart is more than enough to remain joyous in the waiting department. God knows what your are waiting for, and in this time of being shaped, and molded into what He is calling me to become fully in Him I know I have to remain patient, humble, and in prayer against all things that tries to attack me, and the mission that God has me waiting towards.

Silence wrecked our marriage. Unhealed wombs divided us. Unkept vows separated us. Hello! My name is Jereè and I began this BLOG to share my journey as a wife as I start the process of mending the pieces of my broken marriage with God’s help by sharing my life #UnMended. God inspired the name “Mend The Vow” which means repair (something that is broken or damaged)  Relationship with God and with our husbands. It is based on the Scripture in 2 Chronicles 24:12. My hope is to encourage other wives in the world who are, have been separated,and want to mend their marriage back together.

Detangling The Toxics Connections

Detangling The Toxics Connections

What entanglement of the toxics that are left from years of pain, hurt, deceit, lies, and the misconception of people, places, and things left me having relationships with people in my life that I thought mattered until early in the morning when I woke up, and God revelaed to me as I was laying in my bed that i needed to get over the Toxic fear in my life. Now I never heard of the term Toxic fear; so I looked it up, and what I found left me with a blank stare on my face.

Here are 15 toxic emotions that lingered in my life over the years which attached residue in my life.

1. Toxic anxiety

2. Constant anguish

3. Chronic dissatisfaction

4. Toxic addiction

5. Toxic anger

6. Toxic envy

7. Toxic fear

8. Toxic shame

9. Severe depression

10. Toxic frustration

11. Chronic pain of grief

12. Toxic tears

13. Toxic guilt

14. Toxic denial

15. Toxic jealousy

These things felt me feeling compelled to heal from all of the residue of the effects of what is hidden from the parallel  things that has shapen me into the hardcore person that God is changing me from. In this moment i refuse to stay stuck in what the enemy tried to killed me with, and I have no time for disruption in my life.

I asked God to expse everything in me that is holding me back from fully persuing Him.

There is nothing that is to hard for God.

Jeremiah 32:27-35 KJV

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Silence wrecked our marriage. Unhealed wombs divided us. Unkept vows separated us. Hello! My name is Jereè and I began this BLOG to share my journey as a wife as I start the process of mending the pieces of my broken marriage with God’s help by sharing my life #UnMended. God inspired the name “Mend The Vow” which means repair (something that is broken or damaged)  Relationship with God and with our husbands. It is based on the Scripture in 2 Chronicles 24:12. My hope is to encourage other wives in the world who are, have been separated,and want to mend their marriage back together.

When Bitterness is Still Holding You Hostage

When Bitterness is Still Holding You Hostage

I’m Bitter, Broken, and Bare

What am I suppose to do with theses feelings God?

uhhhhhhh! I woke up this morning, and after heading to the bathroom for a morning of reflection in the mirror the first thing God throws at me is I need to get rid of this bitterness that is holding me hostage.

I had no Idea that I was bitter still I thought that I had let that Go But apparently this is so not the case. I want to know why it is still here, and I want to know why it is holding me hostage.

Here are a few things that has made me bitter in life, and in the most recent years of my life! 

  1. The affair.

  2. Being able to conceive as of yet.

  3. The death of my father.

  4. Not walking in my full potential in life.

  5. Being Finacially Broken

  6. Not flourishing in my ministry Like I know I desire to.

  7. not having a close relationship with some family members.

  8. Not being over the skeletons in my closet.

  9. Not being satified in life.

  10. The murder of my best friend (2007).

  11. Going to jail  (Feb. 2009 Mar 2010).

  12. Being personally displayed while going through a hard time in my marriage.

  13. Wanting things now, but choosing to wait on God (It’s hard out here).

  14. Being a sexually abused woman.

  15. Allowing people to use me (back in the day).

  16. Fearing the past of my past.

  17. Rejection.

  18. identity Crisis.

  19. Self Deception.

  20. Feeling not worthy of the call on my life.

Bitterness is the new raw emotion

What chokes me on the inside of my heart is the need to resist the trtuh of my pain because it hurts so much, and the betrayal of people I was consider family. As I look over the list above I see a laundry list ofk dirty, filthy, an uncleansed cycle of a disrupted life that has stop feeling the effects of it all while running to God unhealed, and unrestored.

The cycle of abuse in my life runs deep, and I did not know that this cloud of bitterness was still latched on to my life like this. I thought I was over so many things mentioned but I am so wrong. Who am I?and what do I need to do God in order to relinguish this bitter place inside my heart?

I do not want to be like this walking around not focused enough, and not whole all the way. God in this time, and in this moment I ask that you strip away thiese bitter pieces from within me for they are deeply rooted into the core of my life.

What will you give up to live a bitter free life before God? 

There is nothing that can hold you hostage once you know what is lingering inside of your heart. When God alone reveals the ehart of your heart to you there is nothing else to do but to take action, and resist the notion not to move ahead, and heal from the very things that you are afraid to face.

Silence wrecked our marriage. Unhealed wombs divided us. Unkept vows separated us. Hello! My name is Jereè and I began this BLOG to share my journey as a wife as I start the process of mending the pieces of my broken marriage with God’s help by sharing my life #UnMended. God inspired the name “Mend The Vow” which means repair (something that is broken or damaged)  Relationship with God and with our husbands. It is based on the Scripture in 2 Chronicles 24:12. My hope is to encourage other wives in the world who are, have been separated,and want to mend their marriage back together.

The Investment Of Forgiveness

The Investment Of Forgiveness

I never knew personally the effects of what forgiveness would do in my life until I asked God to help me forgive the people in my life that had caused me great pain, and I did not know how really ready i would be in helping my heart to be freed from the isolation i had placed it in for so long I was bound to the pain that hurt my purpose by not relinguishing forgiveness so that I would be able to live my life that God has for me.

Tears does not equate to being wearing it a sign on strength, and a position of brokness that God can gain access to when your heart is opened to Him. last night I noticed that I was holding on to a lot of junk, and I knew that I had to do something or else I would sink further into the pit hole of self loathing, and i was not going to go there. I asked God to help with a few things, and He instructed my heart to release somethings to Him. These thing were always hard for me to talk about i know one of the biggest things that has always bothered me deeply was not understanding why i had to endure sexual abuse from a young child to a teenager, and to a young adult.

There are a lot of things that has to heal in my heart, and today is a perfect day for me to free my heart of everything that has hurt me in my life. I want to be free in my heart, and in my life to be able to know the feeling of true surrender to forgiveness.

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Here are a list of things that I want to set free from my life.

  1. I forgive my mother for the way she raised me.
  2. I forgive the men that sexually abused me throughout my life.
  3. I forgive each person that has placed me in painful situations in my life.
  4. I forgive my family for not understanding me.
  5. I forgive myself for holding this pain in so long, and for thinking that i was not enough to ask for forgiveness.

Now here is a deeper exchange in forgiveness

  1. God I want to be forgiven for each harmful word that i have ever spoke out of my mouth towards any human being walking this earth.

  2. God I want you to forgive me for running for you, and chasing the things of my flesh.

  3. God I want you to forgive me for disrespecting myself in ways that were displeasing in your sight.

  4. God I want you to forgive me for dishonoring my husband.

  5. God I want you to forgive me for living in my flesh.

Today I pray that God will lead you to a place to forgiveness, and that you will freely want to forgive. Nothing is worth staying stuck, and bound in forever. Please allow God to heal, guide, and restore the happiness that the enemy has robbed from your life.

You are a Jewel of God, and your forgiveness is major in this season of your life. Never allow yourself to be defeated where God is motioning you to come out of. God is always listening to the broken peices of your life allow Him to make all things knew.

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Silence wrecked our marriage. Unhealed wombs divided us. Unkept vows separated us. Hello! My name is Jereè and I began this BLOG to share my journey as a wife as I start the process of mending the pieces of my broken marriage with God’s help by sharing my life #UnMended. God inspired the name “Mend The Vow” which means repair (something that is broken or damaged)  Relationship with God and with our husbands. It is based on the Scripture in 2 Chronicles 24:12. My hope is to encourage other wives in the world who are, have been separated,and want to mend their marriage back together.

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