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Commission To Love You! Part II

Commission To Love You! Part II


The faith To Stand For My Marriage.

The act in faith that I am standing in concerning my marriage did not come over night I had to fight in the spirit to get to this place, and I had to really stay before God in fasting; and constant prayer building up my faith to a new level that it’s never been before.

No matter the situation, keep faith in God, believe in God, trust God and thy ways, and everything will work out in the end for the good.

I had to go on a mission within  myself I was determined to stand in faith regardless of what my situation in my marriage looked liked. See what faith does is get the attention of God, but it is by your faith that starts the work in the spiritual realm, and you have to be sold out in what you are believing God for in your faith.


I went to church, and I served others that was facing similarities as me concerning their marriage. I connected with people that told me somethings, and which made me think of my own situation. This made me level up in my prayer time, in my having more faith than I could stand to encounter.

You Have To Have A Servants Heart Towards Your Spouse Even When Your Separated!

For the most part I see my husband about once or twice a week, but if he calls and is in need of my help hands down i am having a willing yes in my spirit, because he is still my husband, and my vows has not changed towards him. His needs are still the needs that I desire to meet as his wife.


If you’re separated from your spouse you can still find ways to serve your husband. #mendedheartstg

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There Will Be Time In Prayer!

When things happened in my marriage I would never focus on what to pray for I would just ask God to fix it, and if He did or not I would not go to God about the same thing in prayer. “What a mistake I made.”  In this season of my marriage I am fiercely committed to not just giving God the praise for restoration in my own marriage, but i am also being intentional in my prayer time in praying for other couples that are facing the same things in their marriage as I am.

Being Intentional About What To Pray For Concerning My Marriage!

So! I had ro let somethings bleed out of myself, before I went to God concerning my husband. I had to pray that God would take out the filthy things that were hidden inside of me in order for me to pray earnestly for my marriage. When I was able to get me straight with God this is when I hit the ground running in my prayer time for my marriage, and for God to have his way concerning my husband.

1. I know that God place my husband in my life, but what I didnt know what the enemy tricked my husband into leaving the home. See if satan can cause the head to leave the household that he has won; or so he thinks he did.

  • You have to ask God to teach you how to war in the spiritual realm concerning your husband.
  • You have to realize that this is not a natural battl for your marriage.
  • you have to bare it, and not whimper out.

These are the things that I had to learn in order to build tough skin in facing these prayer session in seeking God to restore my marriage.

When God Commissioned You To Stand Any How!

There has been things that has taken place where you think I would cry, feel depressed, and or just would want to throw in the towel, and that sound still voice says “Keep going daughter.” So i do, and I manage to still conquer the day in my prayer, and in staying committed to stand on the promises that God has concerning my marriage.

See when God commission me to stand for my marriage, and to love my husband more strongly than I ever have before I never thought He expected me to publicly share it. But what I did not grasp at the time of Him telling me this was….

1. There are other marriages out there that are suffering.

2. There is this big divorce rate in Christian marriages.

3. Everyone is deciding to walk away instead of fight for their marriage.

So here I am the poster child for transparency. I know that with the constant rise of abandoned marriages loosing faith to stand God had to use someone to stand in the gap for marriage everywhere.

God can bring restoration to your marriage. But what are you doing to get God’s attention?

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Scripture on Faith For Your Marriage!

“Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ: By whom also we have access by faith into this grace wherein we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God. And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience;

And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us. For when we were yet without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly.

For scarcely for a righteous man will one die: yet peradventure for a good man some would even dare to die. But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. Much more then, being now justified by his blood, we shall be saved from wrath through him. For if, when we were enemies, we were reconciled to God by the death of his Son, much more, being reconciled, we shall be saved by his life. And not only so, but we also joy in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, by whom we have now received the atonement.

(For until the law sin was in the world: but sin is not imputed when there is no law. Nevertheless death reigned from Adam to Moses, even over them that had not sinned after the similitude of Adam’s transgression, who is the figure of him that was to come. But not as the offence, so also is the free gift. For if through the offence of one many be dead, much more the grace of God, and the gift by grace, which is by one man, Jesus Christ, hath abounded unto many. And not as it was by one that sinned, so is the gift: for the judgment was by one to condemnation, but the free gift is of many offences unto justification.

For if by one man’s offence death reigned by one; much more they which receive abundance of grace and of the gift of righteousness shall reign in life by one, Jesus Christ.) Therefore as by the offence of one judgment came upon all men to condemnation; even so by the righteousness of one the free gift came upon all men unto justification of life. For as by one man’s disobedience many were made sinners, so by the obedience of one shall many be made righteous. Moreover the law entered, that the offence might abound. But where sin abounded, grace did much more abound: That as sin hath reigned unto death, even so might grace reign through righteousness unto eternal life by Jesus Christ our Lord.”

Romans‬ ‭5:1-3, 5-11, 13-21‬ ‭KJV‬‬


S/N Ladies

I am gaining the total victory in God by remaining 100% obedient to the fight for my marriage that He has commissioned me to stand in. If you are facing the same thing in your marriage my advice to you is to build up your faith in God, and be prepared to fight on your needs in prayer, because your main goal is not to allow the enemy to steal what God has given you.


‭1 Corinthians‬ ‭7:3‬ ‭KJV‬‬

“Let the husband render unto the wife due benevolence: and likewise also the wife unto the husband.”


Commissioned To Love You! Part 1

Commissioned To Love You! Part 1


Deep down in my heart was the woman that was waiting to be linked to your heart, but before she could ever surface there had to be an intentional date with God with the likeness of the old me. I was sick from countless painful moments of past hurts, and lets downs from many people of whom I thought I could trust. There were moments where I wanted to change, but I didn’t know how, and with each tiny step of my own I’ve always fumbled the ball, and you ended up paying the price with my insecurities, doubts, and shame of my own life.

Often times when someone is left with undelivered pain, and emotions they always end up hurting others. You know that saying hurt people hurt other people. Well in the first four years, and eleven months of my marriage I was a disrespectful, somewhat loving, mouthy, attutiude having, whatever talking sort of wife.

My past ended my marriage, and for that, I’ll always be thankful to God. Why? Because my husband left me, and God healed my broken past. While my husband was gone, left hurt, and just through with me, and our marriage I was alone utterly alone, and it wasn’t any one to blame, but myself. How could the conditions of my heart harm the man that God sent to me? This was the question that lingered in my mind, and I was so regretful of allowing my past hurt to tear apart what God placed together. I cried day in, and day out hoping for a sign from God that he would fix it. Through more crying, and regret of what hurt my brought into my marriage, and mostly to my husband God starting speaking, and He allowed me to feel the hurt that my husband felt I cried even harder. I was so shocked

This was the question that lingered in my mind, and I was so regretful of allowing my past hurt to tear apart what God placed together. I cried day in, and day out hoping for a sign from God that he would fix it. Through more crying, and regret of what hurt my brought into my marriage, and mostly to my husband God starting speaking, and He allowed me to feel the hurt that my husband felt I cried even harder. I was so shocked

Through more crying, and regret of what hurt my brought into my marriage, and mostly to my husband God starting speaking, and He allowed me to feel the hurt that my husband felt I cried even harder. I was so shocked at what I’ve done, and I was so embarrassed, and not knowing who or what I was doing in harming, and not loving my husband.

God came to me, a few weeks before my husband walked out, and showed me myself in an opened vision I was in this old warehouse locked in this clear glass box, and the old me was beating on the glass box trying to do all she could to shattered the glass to escape; but as she was in a rage the new me emerged, and laught as I walked away with the key to my past. Angel flew to me, and as I released the key to my past to the angel God’s voice spoke to me so clearly, and said I’m giving you a new life.

Now in the coming weeks after this vision, I experienced my husband leaving me, and me spending days purging out my sorrows in my tears, and I had no idea this was the making of the new me. I got intentional on what God was speaking into my life, and I begin to desire the change in which He spoke about my life. I started to call upon the name of God like I’ve never done before in my life, and I simply wholeheartedly asked Him to forgive me of the wrong that I’ve done to my husband in hurting him, and being a displeasing wife to him.

After all of the repenting, and the alone time that I spent with God confessing  my wrongs, and wanting desperately to have my marriage healed, and my husband home I knew that it was time to get down to some serious business in my prayer time alone, and as well as getting other people to journey with me in my fight to intercede concerning the heart of my husband.

As I begin fasting, and interceeding  for my for change in my life, and for restoration in my marriage everything that could go wrong happened. I ended up moving out of my home, and moving in with my mom, and my husband ended up going his way. The real fight is standing , and believing in God’s promises to come forth.

I’ve been in the battle of my life, and let me tell you God has been with me every step of the way. Once I stepped back into my rightful place in God the enemy just has been trying to tear me down, but guess what? No weapon formed against me shall prosper, and every tongue that rises against me shall be condemed.

I’m standing in my faith, and I worshiping God, and having great hope in my marriage that it will be restored, because God promised me that He will it.

I stand on the following scripture which is;

Hebrews 11:1

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, and the evidance of things not seen.

I want to be very transparent than normal, and say to any woman that is facing tough times in marriage that you need to fight like hell for your marriage. I don’t care what it looks like, and or what he’s doing if God told you that He’s going to restore your marriage that you get in your prayer closet, and begin to war in the spirit, and if you dont know how ask God to teach you how to do so.

I am commissioned to love my husband, and I am fighting for my marriage like never before; because the enemy thinks he won, but not so. I promise to pray you us through this, and to stand firmly on the word of God on our behalf. I vow to seek God with my whole heart concerning what to do on our behalf. I promise once God brings restoration back to its rightful place in our marriage that I will never attack you with my words. I will never belittle you with my insecurities of my past. I vow to respect you as my husband, and to always take care of your heart. Besides God being first, and formost in my life nothing besides God will come before you.

God placed us together, and he had to shake up some things in the both of us so that we can know that it’s not us take it mending the pieces of our marriage back together, but it’s Him that is forming our marriage back together, and that He will get all of the glory out of this, and that it will be a testimony that will lead other marriages back to the heart of God.

i promise to listen in the midnight hour when you want to express what’s on your heart, and I promises to always listen to your dreams, and to help you build your trust back in me step by step, and one day at a time.


Ladies this is one of the toughest battles that I have ever faced in my entire life being away from my husband is heart breaking, and at times I find myself breaking down because I can’t reach out, and hug him, or simply see him in the morning as I open up my eyes. I miss his laughter, our talks, watching television with him, and just running errands with him. I never saw this storm coming, and I never thought that this would be my marriage that would face a crisis like this on; but I count it all joy any how because i know that God holds the finals say, and this is what gives me peace of mind in this storm that I am facing in my life right now.

As we know in the bible it says this about the unsaved husband…..

1 Corinthians 7:14King James Version (KJV)

14 For the unbelieving husband is sanctified by the wife, and the unbelieving wife is sanctified by the husband: else were your children unclean, but now are they holy.


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