This season in my marriage I have really learned the concept of letting go and really letting God do what I can’t in my marriage, and as a wife it is hard knowin that going deeper is not the most easiest thing to commit to but in yeidling to God in loving my husband through praying the things that are needed it most definitely worth all of the sleepless nights, and the time before God in prayer concerning how to nuture the love deeper toward my husband will cause a love that no demon in hell can come against. Why? because God is providing it.
I remember a time that I would not allow my husband to get close to be because of fear of rejection that might come from him; so i learned how to close my heart off from being prerejected, and what this did was close my love off in a major way to him, and i did not even know this was happening. I had to really take the things that i was doing into consideration, and really seek to change the way that I was pushing love away in my marriage.
Here’s so real truth….
when i was broken I did not care to see how I was dealing with the heart of pain that was spilling out from my heart, and for the most part I did not think that my husband loved me the way that he professed to. I was walking around with shame, and disparate measures of dispair. I did not know the first thing about real love, and when it encoutered my heart all I did was put a sheild up.
The things that i did to stop allow myself to push him away is I had to put myself out there, and admit some real horrifying things about myself to my husband from the darkness of my past, and this was declaring growth in my ability to show myself to my husband to be openly broken in my flesh, and to dispose the Shame that the enemy try to use against me.
Freeing my heart has mae me feel so free, and so alive within my marriage, and for the first time in a long time I feel spiritually free to discuss things that I have been through with my husband, and his love capture my pain, and loves me through it all. I am so grateful to where God in leading me in honesty with sharing my past with my husband, and praying for a deeper love within my marriage for my husband.
If you are going through a hard time with receving the love that your husband is pouring into you may I offer a word of advice and just say unleash the guards that is around your heart, and fully recieve the love offered from your husband to you. It can be this simple sis.
Silence wrecked our marriage. Unhealed wombs divided us. Unkept vows separated us. Hello! My name is Jereè and I began this BLOG to share my journey as a wife as I start the process of mending the pieces of my broken marriage with God’s help by sharing my life #UnMended. God inspired the name “Mend The Vow” which means repair (something that is broken or damaged) Relationship with God and with our husbands. It is based on the Scripture in 2 Chronicles 24:12. My hope is to encourage other wives in the world who are, have been separated,and want to mend their marriage back together.