Can you imagine being stuck in a river of guilt while trying to pray to God to help you but His ear isn’t hearing from you because you chose not to forgive?
This is a scary place to be in your mindset while knowing the right things to do but simply refusing to do it because you still carry around the burden of offense created by the pain of someone that has hurt you. Trust me I get it because I have been there before, and I am currently walking out my lane in forgiving someone that shoved my past of being molested as a child in my face. What that I learned about this person is they were holding this inside of their heart for some time and they could not wait to deliver that blow to my heart.
At that moment as the words were coming out of their mouth I had to remind myself not to say a word that will offend I mean this person even called me out of my name, and this person was close to my heart at a point in time in life so I never expected this to ever come out of the mouth towards me. I had to displace my feelings for a while, and really see what needed to be done because the way I wanted to counter react would not have been good.
I had to really sit down and take action on allowing this thing go… I felt bitterness trying to slip in and I could tell a mountain of unforgiveness was beginning to pile up in my heart. I was not going to go through another two weeks of my life feeling the weight of the pain filtered behind someone’s words.
I had to shake myself loose, and begin to seek God on a plan of action of how to find forgiveness, and how to live it out daily in my life even when something else tries to combat itself against what the word of God instructs me to do when it comes to releasing forgiveness to those that I need to freely forgive despite the cause of the afflicted pain that was given to them upon me.
Here are the steps that I’ve taken in walking freely in forgiving people in my life, and living a lifestyle of forgiveness daily.
I solely allowed myself to remove the stain of pain that was attached to my heart that I had for this person.
I ask God to hold me accountable daily to walk in the freedom of forgiveness.
I made an in-depth list of other people that I needed to forgive, and I added what I need to forgive them for.
- I decided to break down my flesh and go on a fast to keep myself disciplined in everything that I do in my life.
- I also started reading a book on forgiveness. Here’s the link to the book if you want to order a copy https://www.amazon.com/Unpacking-Forgiveness-Biblical-Answers-Questions/dp/1581349807/ref=sr_1_1?dchild=1&keywords=unpacking+forgiveness&qid=1607877510&sr=8-1
I pray that this blog post has help you in coming to a place to forgive whoever caused you pain, and or has offended you in any way.
Remember Broken pieces do mend but you have to allow God to do the mending in your life.