God, it’s Me again Knocking On Heavens Door
The last few days I have been tip toeing on the door of leading me back to the encounter I miss with God, and I know this might sound way out there, But I feel hopeless when I am not connected to Him. i fee l like i am drifting along rhe shore without a safety net to catch me if i fall.
My tolerance for the things that i use to tolerate has become a zero chance of me accepting anything from anyone that is not in alignment of what I need for my life. There is no longing for my heart than needed God right now, but no making the least bit of effort to knock down the doors of heaven in prayer to attract His attention.
However there has been some major disattraction in my life as to why i have not been gaining ground in getting back to my prayer life. What I have come to know is that pride is a major factor, and the second is my current life circumstances. I am facing many things that are displaying i need you. And before the alarms goes off i find myself here again purposely pouring out, and eleminating any excuses as to why I’m not feeding my promise of the day.
i’ve been in this place of self hinderance, and this place of incompleteness. I do not know how to get out of this stage in my life, and i know I cannot tackle it by myself. I always knew that with God i am going to fail, at everything I place my hands on. This is why it is so important for me to climb out of this pit hole that I am currently in.
Today I am challenging myself, and you to rise above fear, and to refuse to live in your feelings. Things happen, and times heals from the lessons that we learn in life as women.
Help me in my unbelief to exchange this heart of dishonor for a heart of courageous courage to move forward in the Kingdom. I know that there has been a lot of things done on my end that you are not pleased with, and I ask that you deeply consider forgiving my faults. I also ask that you do the same for every woman that encounters this prayer. Give us ears to hear, eyes to see in you. I pray these things in Jesus name. Amen.