I Peeped it, And I Learned To Dismantle The Root
[ctt template=”10″ link=”7ZPpV” via=”yes” ]Running back to God after the yoke of bondage breaks. [/ctt]
Tonight I experienced something that I have been waiting for God to do in my life, and that is showing me how to see the judas in relationship form. I felt some discomfort in my spirit for the last few days, and I was getting to the point where my spirit was being grieved.
I did not know that God was about to approach my breakthrough tonight, but i know onk yesterday God gave me certain instructions on what to do, and I followed them to a tee, and what happended turned out to be the very thing that I needed to break free from the adulterous relationship that I was in.
over the last week God has been revealing key point on how I needed to pay close attention to the person that I was having an affair with, and the one thing that grabbed my attention is when I seen the demonic forces shift into the face of the man that I was laying with. I got shook to the point I asked him. Why did his eyes change the way they did, and he looked at me like what are you talkng about?
Nothing was more pressed on my heart than rushing out of this relationship, but I knew I had to allow God to free me or else I would not know How to be free from this very sin that I entangled myself in. I love how God can use the very mess that I created for His glory, and for a learning tool for ministry.
There is a process of being free from sexual enslavement
- You have to fight for your breakthrough while you are in the fire
- You have to see the things that brings dishonor to your body
- You have to stop addressing things in a sinful nature
- You have to be aware of the value you hold as a woman
- You have to realize that enough is enough
- You must be determined to learn the lesson, and break the cycle of oppression in your life where sexual sinfull deeds are concerned
When God revealed the root to the cause of why I keep running to sex to solve my problems is I have a void of loneliness that is growing bigger, and i seek intimacy instead of allowing God to heal me where I am hurting.
Here the deets! I was so hurt, and wrecked in my personal life that I was willing to just shift my life into a role that I know was not God’s wil; for my life, and I was harming my body every time I would lay down with this man. There were time when I felt so dead on the inside of my mind, my body, and within my spirit that I just did. not care anymore.
I kept sinking deeper into the sin that was causing the most pain in my life, and the sad part was every time I would mention that I was not into having sex with him, he would just seek me out more. I did not like the fact that I was in this way in my life. I felt like this was it for me; so I just laid down, and burried myself in the shame of my sin.
Have you ever gone through something like this?
Nothing can release you like this desire for God, and the longing to be re-reconciled to His heart. The personal intimacy that I have with God is going to be onek that I will not allow to cease from my life. Now that I know the mistakes of my sins, and where the enemy thought he was going to leave me for dead at says a lot about God’s love for me; because He did not allow me to stay in that dark place in my life .
I started to notice that tis man s not really interested in me, but in the things that i could do for him, and I was so blinded to the fact that this was going on until God started to open up my eyes to certain things. The morning before I was sitting at the table, and God quickened my spirit, and told me that he was up to no good. So I started peeping the things out like closely paying attention to my discerning ear.
Let’s just say that I discovered some information that he was entertaining another female, and I still was not ready to leave him. This was such a weird place to be in knowing that sin is rising in my life, and I am still focused somewhat on making it work with this man. I felt trapped, alone, and so stupid for even thinking that this would somehow work.
What finally got my full attention is when I begin to seek God, and pray about getting freed from this relationship. My desire to serve God wholeheartedly was entering my life again, and I know that leaving in God’s timing was not going to be that difficult, and like a promise from the lips of God He prepared me to exist the doorway of this relationship.
I am discovering the true way of healing in God, and the way of knowing that nothing can separate me from God’s love not even the mistakes of my sins. I know that I have a long road to travel where my healing is concerned, but I am here for it all.
Have you been able to fully identify the root of your pain when it comes to being stuck in sexual sin?
My prayer for you tonight is that God will interrupt every sexual encounter in your life that is of a sinful nature, and that He will compel your heart to cry out to Him like never before.