Living in The Seat Of Comparison
The stages of comparison hit my life as a young woman I remembering back then desiring to be a mom so bad, and looking at other women with their children being loving, and attentive with their children. How I long to be a mom, and how secretly in my heart I began to despise women because I for some reason I was not getting pregnant with every year that came, and went.
I started ti feel less then a woman, and I even felt horriblly broken on the inside. I would cry, and ask God why I was not conceiving, and I felt like it was never going to happen in life for me. So I started hating women that had children. I would compare their motherly skills to what I’d do if I had a kid. This was all due to me comparing my life to their life. I did not understand back then what I so understand today.
I did not know what they stood in prayer for before they actually got their chance to be a mom, and I did not kknow if their mind went through the same cycle of comparison as mine did. I would stand in prayer lines for years hearing people prophecy over my womb, calling forth my unborn children, and I would be hopeful until service was over, and I still did not have a child in my arms.
You see my mind was not conforming to what God spoke over my life because I was still stuck in the mindset of lack, and this was not going to work the mircle of my child being birth no sooner than in God’s timing. Wating on God is one of the most uncomfortable things that I have experienced in my life. It can sometimes being tiring, hectic, and lonely.
What got me off this realm of thinking was when I met one of my mentors back in 2017 she begin to speak life into those empty places in my life. She prayed over me, and she fought in the spirit for me. There is a sense of peace that came over me, and I hade to daily activate training my mind not to devalue myself just because I am not walking in motherhood yet, and yes I said yet. God’s promises for my womb will not return back void, and neither will his promises for yours.
God is inttentional about what He thinks about us, and what we think about ourselves. I know that grace has always brought me back to the center of God’s love for me, And I want to show you through scripture how this will help you as it has helped me speak life, and prayer to my womb.
This is a important key in the story of Hannah
Why did peninnah provoke Hannah?Biblical account
Every year, when Elkanah offered up a sacrifice at Shiloh, he would share out the portions of meat and give Hannah a double portion, which incited the jealousy of Peninnah. Peninnah would taunt Hannah for being childless.
And Hannah Prayed
And Hannah prayed and said: “My heart rejoices in the Lord; my strength is exalted in the Lord. I smile at my enemies, because I rejoice in Your salvation. “Talk no more so very proudly; let no arrogance come from your mouth, for the Lord is the God of knowledge; and by Him actions are weighed.
What did Hannah pray for in the Bible?
In her prayer, she asked God for a son and in return she vowed to give the son back to God for the service of God. She promised he would remain a Nazarite all the days of his life. … Hannah conceived and bore a son, and named him Samuel, literally Heard by God, “since she had asked the Lord for him” (1 Samuel 1:20 NAB).
Who was Hannah’s son?
What did Hannah vow to God?
Hannah vowed a vow and she called on God on the strength of her vow to look with mercy and compassion her afflictions. She promised that if God will remember her on the strength of her vow, she will give back to God the long awaited son when he comes. This isn’t a light promise.
Have you ever experienced anyone mocking you because you did not have children by the time you were thirty-something, and or because they thought your child baring years where coming to an end? what you have to remember in your heart, and take into account in your mind is when God speaks a word concerning his people it will not return unto to Him void but it will accomplish everything that it has been sent out to complete. Isaiah 55:11
- There will always be time to wait in your season, and what matters the most is what you are doing while your waiting on God’s promise to find you?
- You have to be in a receivable spirit in order for God to manifest His promises into your life?
- Are you tilting the ground while you are in your waiting season?
There is nothing more challenging than waiting on the offspring of your womb, but let me affrim this in your spirit God is faithful, and I know that the time is coming where there will be little eyes staring back into mind with love, and with sound that only can connect to my heart from this people angel of my womb.