Sometimes gray space happen in my life, and I hide from purpose. Why because a lot has gone on in my life, and at times I ready to deal with it, but the majority of the time I am not will to do anything but to just sit, and watch nothing episodes of senseless shows just to past the time.
Has this ever happened to you?
I never get excited about sharing where i am currently in my journey, and I had to put a huge cap on over sharing with the world until I felt totally ready to talk about the struggles of the life after him (my husband), and my soon to be ex-husband at that. I never really thought it would ever happen. But hey it’s life, and it for sure has to go on without him in it.
Have you ever thought of shutting down your purpose for a little while?
It is ok if you did!!! Because sometimes you have to take sometime for yourself too regroup, and to refocus on you. The purpose cannot move unless you are centered in the stage of being ready, and aligned where God is ready to set your feet to travel to.
I am well aware that purpose has to meet me in every section of my life. Like right in this moment I do not feel like I should be typing, but this is where courage shows up for me, and it gives me that extra push that I need in order to do the best things that makes me move in purpose. Flowing in encouragement has not always been one of my strong suits as a woman I have always hide in the background, and watched others from afar. I always desired to element my story in ways that would touch the lives of hearts that needed to be healed, but I also struggled with the reason of why did it had to be me?
I have noticed that every fragile piece of my heart has been un-mended. can you imagine praying, worshipping, and ministering for almost 3 years without wavering one ounce of your faith, and then boom the reality of your life hits you harder than anything you have experienced before? I searched for answers, and I prayed for healing, and I got nothing in return of what I thought I was suppose to received; so I shut down. I woke up one morning, and told myself this was it for me.
Some of the hardest days have been not praying, not seeking clarity for my life, and not reestablishing my faith, and tighting up my relationship with God. I’ve cried a little today, because I miss the intimacy that only God can proved in times like these. I know that in messy season things are not always going to look how I expect them to look, and I have to be ok with that.
When I feel defeated i lean on the following scriptures to pull me back in the race of my purpose.
Jeremiah 29:11 – For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
Proverbs 16:9 – A man’s heart deviseth his way: but the LORD directeth his steps.
Romans 8:28 – And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to [his] purpose.
John 15:16 – Ye have not chosen me, but I have chosen you, and ordained you, that ye should go and bring forth fruit, and [that] your fruit should remain: that whatsoever ye shall ask of the Father in my name, he may give it you.
Acts 26:16 – But rise, and stand upon thy feet: for I have appeared unto thee for this purpose, to make thee a minister and a witness both of these things which thou hast seen, and of those things in the which I will appear unto thee;
Matthew 28:19 – Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost:
Ephesians 1:11 – In whom also we have obtained an inheritance, being predestinated according to the purpose of him who worketh all things after the counsel of his own will:
Ecclesiastes 12:13 – Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: Fear God, and keep his commandments: for this [is] the whole [duty] of man.
1 Corinthians 6:19-20 – What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost [which is] in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?
Isaiah 43:7 – [Even] every one that is called by my name: for I have created him for my glory, I have formed him; yea, I have made him.
Isaiah 14:24 – The LORD of hosts hath sworn, saying, Surely as I have thought, so shall it come to pass; and as I have purposed, [so] shall it stand:
Isaiah 14:27 – For the LORD of hosts hath purposed, and who shall disannul [it]? and his hand [is] stretched out, and who shall turn it back?
Philippians 2:1-4 – If [there be] therefore any consolation in Christ, if any comfort of love, if any fellowship of the Spirit, if any bowels and mercies,
Jeremiah 1:5 – Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee; and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee, [and] I ordained thee a prophet unto the nations.
Isaiah 14:26 – This [is] the purpose that is purposed upon the whole earth: and this [is] the hand that is stretched out upon all the nations.
Psalms 139:13 – 127:16 – For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb.
Hello! My name is Jereè and I began this BLOG to share my journey as a Woman unapologetically as I start the process of mending the pieces of my broken life with God’s help by sharing my life #UnMended while Baring the deepest parts of myself has been very hard, but is so worth it in the end to see the woman I’ll become. So Cheers to healing, and to celebrating my freedon as a woman, in love, in life, and in faith. May you also grow from what I’ve grown from. Xo Jereè