Sex has always attached itself to my life from a very young age in fact i talk about it often in my story
I always been the type of woman kthat used sex in relationship to ease my mind, and to soothe the emotionally pain that was running through my mind, and I did not have the urge to make it stop. Nothing became easier over the years in my life where sex was not a huge activity in my life. I remember a few years back I got so entagled with pornography that it begin to make me fall into a greater sin in the sexual deeds in my thoughts.
I did not think about the mental damage that could cause later down the road, and boy did it. I was having all kind of thought, but thank God I never reacted physically to them. I was never meant to be this bad, but the mistakes of my past brought these filters into my old life, and current life. I thoight that if I stopped certain things in my life then it would be put to rest.
what I came to know is in 1 Corinthians Chapter 6 Says:
8 Flee fornication. Every sin that a man doeth is without the body; but he that committeth fornication sinneth against his own body.
19 What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost [which is] in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?
20 For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God’s.
1 Corinthians 6:18 – 6:20
I never fully took the action to break the soul ties that were attached to every person that I’d been with, and or whom they have slept with until recently in prayer this week. I got before God, and cried out to Him I told Him that I was tired of living in sexual sin, and that I wanted to be forgiven, and healed in this area totally.
what I have to do is keep a prepared mind, and a clean heart. What happened today after church was something that God broight insight to my about concerning on of my borther’s in Christ. After service ended today I was sitting in my seat, and someone came up to me, and said hello. It was an old friend of mind which I knew had a hufe crush on me. While we were catcing up he begin to ask me was myself, and my husband stil together. red flag ? due to the fact that he knew some years back that me, and my husband were separated; because of infidelity came into our marriage.
And back then this old friend was trying to shoot his shot, but i was blocking him, and am still going to block his advances. As he was talking God begin to show me how easily the enemy can invade my space sexually if i am not constantly guarded in this area. I know that temptation is on every side, and the enemy will use anyone that gives him lead way.
How to break the cords of sexual soul ties
You first have to admit to the sin
You have to stop the act of sexual impurity in your life
You have to renounce any open door to sexual soul ties that has ever formed in your life out side of being married
You must then Confess your sin to God with a repented heart
You must activity pray for strength in this area, but from a place of victory
Back in the summer of 2K11 was the last time I had any sexual encounters with a woman, and yes I said with a woman. Sexual perversion is deadly. it can cost you, your very salvation, and it can always cause to to sway in a different direction in your faith. There are a lot of things I have entangled myself in due to poor choice, and constant reminders of my sexual abuse
Here are some influential lies that deceive me because I was sexually abuse as a child
Becuse I was rapped at the age of eleven I formed a hatred for man that was so deep whispers begin to come into my ear that I loved when in a sexual way.
God would understand my reasoning of being this way.
The world would just have to accept the fact that it is not my fault that i have been force to be with the same sex in relationship.
These lies took a toll on my mind, and how I viewed myself, and How I looked at love from an un-pure place in my heart. When I finally broke down at the age of twenty four to shed light on this my mom rejected it, and rebuked me, and told me I was out of order. So I stay in this filth seven more years, and every time the exchange of lust was done I would feel sick to my stomach. because I knew it was wrong, but my body craved the sin more than It crave the salvation to be free from it.
Tonight is the first time in a while where I can be honest with myself, and admit that I have a long way to go in this healing process of being free from sexual soul ties, and although I am praying daily theenemy is always on the move waiting, and watch.
To all those that are fighting to be free, and remain free just know that I am standing with you in prayer, and in freedom knowing that God is able to pull us all through out of this enslaved cycle of sexual sin.
Be free, and be a force to be reconk’d with in the Kingdom of God