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The Recommitment

The Recommitment

Many days i wrestle with the why, the how, and the when but as I trust God ever the more those thoughts, feelings, and continuals emotions begin to subside because i know that all is in His hands to carry out, and battle on my behalf. what I have learned in recommitting myself to commit to stand on behalf of my husband is that things are not going to just show up, and what I mean in saying this is i cannot just sit around and do nothing while i am waiting.

What’s the focus? 

My focus is always the cry of Jeremiah 29:11 this tells me the heart of God’s plan for my life, and he shifts me in a way to cry out before him in the wilderness where he stands up in the heaven to rescue me from myself. The instruction to hold on when I flt like throwing in the throw on yesterday was really real, and I do not share this loosely.

My intentions was a cry to tap out and to see if God was going to hear this cry,, but as God ministered to my heart to hold on, and not to let my feelings takek control I begin to cry uncontrollably as I was driving to work on yesterday. I actually begin to slowly turn this pain that I was feeling in frustration towards my husband into a praise unto God.

Focusing on a praise was not what I intended to do but it did not matter after I started pour my heart out before the altar of God. he heared me, and he was moroe that concerned about what I was going through, and in the same moments He hasten to shift my mind off of the nefgative things that I was feeling, and to simply stand on the promise in which will come to pass concerning all things in my marriage.


After the focus was shift in a whole new direction i wanted to know what was next in this fight to gain the victory! i wanted to know if there was going to be something that would pull me closer into the depths of the thrown of grace, and potentially more mercy because my situation needs it the moents right now. There is not nothing more I thought I could do.

I have fasted on, and off for the last two years, and I have stood, and I have prayed until I could not pray any more, and God is still saying stand, and I am standing. So I had to really shake off the negative, and place my vision back on the focus of the promise. I had to relaize that I am an overcomer by the blood of Jesus, and the reaction of how I was feeling only came from a hurting heart.


As I begin to drive to work, and as the tears still were falling God spoke, and commanded me to go home. I’m like really God in the beginning of my work shift, and He is like yes, and so as I was maing preperation to come home I did not totally understand it all but I was obedient with no stops to the store or no questioning His direction. see it is moments like this that I know that God is shielding me from someone or something, and I only need to know not to question His instructions that he gives me I only need to focus on what he is telling me to do.


So the entire focus to the recommitment of me standing up, and charging heaven with my radical self is to stand at all cost no matter how i feel naturally I focus on the promise, and when the promise still does not look promise I remain focused on the promise that God commanded over my marriage.

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The focus to see what God has promised over my marriage is now in my clear viewing, and i must stand against everything that tries to speak against it. There is nothing that God will not see me through, and I wholeheartedly believe in what he says despite what is in front of me in the natural. i always say things are not what they seem in the natural vs. in the spiritual realm.


What God revealed to me concerning my marriage! 

When i grew tired of standing for a marriage that i felt was already broken to the point of no healing taking place, and no getting back to its foundation God stopped me in my thoughts, and ministered to me in a deep way that i did not see. God said you are not standing for your marriage you are standing for a soul, and one other thing He pointed out was your marriage is just an added bounce of your obedience. Wow God! And I cannot turn that off no matter what the fight for this recommitment is the barrel of the fight that is raging in my spirit to pray more, to interceed strongly on the behalf of my husband, to activate more time with God more now then ever before.


I know now the importance of why God has chosen me to stand even when i felt like throwing in the towel. It is his requirement that He gives to the one he can trust to stand in the fire no matter how high the heat is be turned up. i have to mention to the wives that are reading this! your marriage is the flourishing promise from God, and as you remain obedient even in the most deepest part of the painful process in your marriage God is always waiting for your war cry to him so that he can usher you into His presnt to give you comfort, and strength for the journey that you are headed on or are currently in.

What now after all of this? 

Now is the time for me to recommit myself totally to the purpose of m marriage while God is restoring the things that I cannot see right now. In the wating process i have committed to heal from this pain while forgiving my husband for his indiscretions. I am fully focused on recovering from the pain, and i am motivated on gain clarity on some issues that have not been resolved from childhood with that being stated I would like to annouced that as of today i will be attending my first therapy session, and after that i have 26 sessions to go. I will be posting after every session to docuemnt my grown, and my process in. taking care of me to be a better woman for the Kingdom of God, and for myself also  to become a better wife for my husband.



Healing begins once you admit that you have pain, and you no longer want to live in that dark place. ~ Jereè Black



The Recommitment

The Recommitment

This morning God was really dealing with my heart concerning my husband, and how I slipped out of my caring position when it comes to taking care of the simplest needs of mr. Black. He’s spoiled to the third degree , and I had a hand in creating this monster LOL!

But seriously I am undeniably a brat to the core, and when things tend to not go my way I am very expressive about it. This happened from everyone in my family giving me my way. Now I am not saying this to prove a huge point, but what I want to point out to wives, and also wives to be is the saying ” Do what you did in the beginning to keep Her” Doesn’t just apply to us as women. It applies to men as well. men love to be spoiled but as much as we do they just won’t verbalize it.


So this morning i with a sincere heart did something very familiar to show my husband that I still care about caring for him, and this release so much tension between us. I know that a little goes a long way when the actions of what was once done hasn’t been done in a while. This had nothing to do with being intimate or sexual it was simply caring for him in the ways that I did when we were dating.

Sometimes we can get busy with being too busy with life that we may often loose sight of the caring our husbands need; so I want to pose a challenge to wives, and wives to be, Each morning as you wake up (wives only) be intentional about the care you place into your husband before he heads out to work. And whatever that care reflects in your marriage do it with a non sexual  because that is already a required package deal when it comes to being a wife.


And this is for the (engaged women only) spend adequate time with you fiancé don’t allow your freindships to over lap by spreading yourself too thin. Your fiancé next to God should be your number one priority ” I mena this is the one person that you are going to wake up too for the next 60 + years to so start now by honoring the pre-vow of your foundation with this man.


Words of encouragement goes a long way, and for men they can feel when you mean it or if you are just saying it just to sound compassionate. Trust me I’ve been there, and this is the very reason I can speak on a variety of things to help women that are marriaed or that desire to be marriage curve those pit falls in marriage.


Let’s pray

Dear God,

This morning we are at the mercy of your throne help us to not be negelectful wives to our husbands, but allow us to see the need, and the desire that our husbands long for us to satisfy. let our approach be done with respect, and love with  genuine care when we are caring for our husbands. Thank you for hearing the cry of our hearts this morning, and when we feel like we do not need to tend to the needs of our husbands whether we are too busty or upset with them please remind us of the days where we did not have a good man, and the days where we were lonely, and praying for a husband. We love you, and adore you God. I pray these things in Jesus’ name. Amen.




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