What I Never Expected (Part 2)
We all knnow that obedience is better than sacrifice.. But what happens when God calls you to forgive, and also to leave the door to your heart open to someone that has caused you pain?
I recently was getting really to finally slam the door shut in my life, and throw away the key, and i really did not feel the need to leave any amount of room open to any door to allow my odlest sister back in… But God sent a word my way, and He proved it to be true in a matter of days.
I was in a place where I was not going to allow no one to hurt me or say what they will to me. my pride was standing up tall, and i was not going to allow it to back down, I was with reason in the right position to remain in my feeling or so i thought. there’s nothing like God given you an eye opener to your own life, and how it use to be before he washed you, and cleansed you from all of that old junk you once carried around with you. Right?
in one moment God chose to turn my no into a yes Lord, and by way of force but in way of ministering directly to the need of my heart. i remember when i was younher wishing some mean things on my older sis, and She carried the weight of that around for some years, and yet she still loved me, and chose to forgive me.
I was really feeling suerior in my heart because i thought that i really had the upper hand in this thing called revenge without words. But clearly God seen the content of my heart that although situation between my sister, and i shifted into a place where we did not speak or even acknowedlge eachtoher for almost 2 months.
I kind of on the fence with everything eight now, and although i’m trusting in God for whatever his will is for me in all areas of my life i am still going to guard my heart as the word of god instructs me to. Recently my sister called me twice with the last week concerning some family issues no regarding me, and i was there for her regaurding the ordeal but did not talk about anything concerning anything about our sisterhood.
All i know is i’m not going to allow my flesh to be in cotrol of what God is mending fences in when it comes to myself, and my sister. My motto will always be “Broken Pieces Do mend” And I fully stand on the; so in the mean time, and in between time i know that God is up to something so I am pulling myself all the way n the back seat of the car as God drives this vehicle to the road of healing, grwing, and learning what i need to in this time in my life between sisters.